Jecika’s Wayward Ramblings…

Well here we go again. After last years fantabulous success from Jan to July followed by the evil plateau thru November , I am ready to give it another go. I’ve gained back a lot of weight and am not thrilled about it. I want this damnit. And I am gonna have it. I honestly feel my biggest mistake was stopping my daily visits to buddyslim and my food journal. It kept me on track and accountable. So here we go.

Monday April20, Day 1  Goals for the week

Journal daily and check in with buddyslim.

Exercise 3 days this week at least

Eat breakfast daily.

PS sorry to all those buddies I just up and disappeared on

Well I went to the doctor yesterday…and let me tell you I am not all the impressed. A whole lot of nothing went down, certainly no encouragment in the you can do it field….instead he pushed lap band surgery on me…..This is not the first time. He did it as well about 5 years ago or so…So now the question becomes what do I think about that? Any thought? Let me have them I am intested in what you all think…

How come when I am procrastinating the time flies bye? I just got ready to recommit myself and boom another month has gone bye with little change. Where did my go go attitude from last year run off too?? Well I had a very ugly reality check recently. We went on our annual camping trip up north. We canoe down the Au Sable River and stuff for about 10 days. It was wonderful.  All had a great time. Anyway the reality check came in the form of a very very unflattering photo of me and my husband….Hell and damnation I look like an Ogar and you can only see my hubby’s head….OMG I felt so terrible, I feel so terrible. For those of you who don’t know I got off to a fabulous start on this journey last year. I lost aprox. 75lbs in less than 6 months. Then I plateau (a phase in mental or physical development during which little headway is made)…and nothing. I gained and re-lost the same 5lbs for like 5 months….Being depressed coupled with holiday food I just ignored my eating plan. Completely. I have gained back aprox 25lbs that I lost last year, I never wanted to find those damn lbs and yet here they are. I pretty much stopped going to the gym.I want to recommit. I need to recommit. I am somewhat hesitant about going back to the gym. You see while I have been on hiatus my gym closed and I had to pick another one. So not only do I have to get back on the proverbial horse, I have to get back on a NEW horse…I’m not looking forward to it. When I first started the gym and everything, I did it by my self. Sometime during my plateau I got my sister to start going to the gym with me. I loved it. However I see now that it’s actually been an easy excuse. If she doesn’t go, I then rationalize not going my self. She is not committed at all. I’m not really happy about going tot his gym either, I’m more than a bit apprehensive. The town has a snooty reputation and the few times I have been to that gym I did not feel any kindred spirits so to speak. This makes it even more challenging.I’m going to do it. I’m going to set small attainable goals this first week. I don’t want to fail. I WONT fail. I did make a doctors appointment, the first in years. I don’t know what I expect but I guess my health is a good place to start.Well I am going to end by posting this horrible photo on this blog. It breaks my heart to look at it, But I need to face reality. It’s funny I don’t feel this fat, I never have. I don’t know if its that way for others, but I am healthy and strong, fast and not lazy. I have never let my fat hinder me physically….but seeing this photo, well it makes me feel like a poster girl for obesity in america.How depressing is that? 

Well my goals were not acheived by far, not to make excuses….but I was blesses with TOM the day after my last post and needless to say I was not in the best frame of mind to do anything much, not to mention I had to shut down my internet at the other house and that has sucked BIG TIME. Money is tight right now, which is not helped by the ever rising price of gas and food! GRRRR Can anyone say depression? sure seems like one to me. Anyway I did get some exercise in, though not in the form of gym. We canoe’d and did alot of yard work. I guess something is better than nothing. I am going to get back on track. I AM! Ok well I have to get back to work. Later.

Well I’m back, at least at 1/4 power or so.  I have been making a half ass effort to get back on the now non exsistant path to a health happy me. I went MIA like so many others seems to do over the months gone by. No good reason, just one thing after another that made convienant excuses. So here we go again. I was gonna wait to start until this or that and I just this moment decided I’ve had enough again. I think my biggest challange is going to be dragging my arse back to the gym. Its been a bit…..ok well more than a bit I guess over a month for sure…I honestly cant remember. Thats not a good thing.

Well I think it safe to say my June Vacation goal isnt gonna happen, so for me it will be another fat filled summer. Im not looking forward to it, not looking forward to carring around all this regained weight. You know, I dont know how I ever did it with my starting weight. The other day I was babysitting my 9 month old nephew and decided to strap on one of those baby backpack thingys and walk next door to my MIL house. He weighs 25 lbs, He’s a cute little tanker. The fact is I realized as I was starting to get worn out that I was carring around about 3 of him in extra weight in January 07….WOW its a shock to feel it and see it in real terms. I have to get ahold of this mess.

So here we go. Day 1 started.

Starting Goals

 Hit the gym 3 times next week.

Food journal daily.

Blog Daily.

I am having a really really hard time right now getting motivated these days. I am making a few changes in my lifestyle that are proving to be harder than anticipated, and to top these lovely obsticals its my TOM and a horrible time it is. I have not given up. I am still very much wanting to continue my weightloss but am finding it difficult to get motivated on all levels. I find myself rationalizing that spring will bring a second wind…but what if it doesnt? I dont want to regain any more weight. I lost so much of my gusto when my efforts stopped paying off. Eating right and hitting the gym did zip!  I contemplated changing gyms, to get a bigger variety…but honestly I am not overly thrilled about joining a gym with men, my past experiances were less than steller and often left me less than motivated….I should not let it stand in the way but it can be so heartbreaking the rude comments and looks yadda yadda yadda….well anyway I am here and attempting yet another fresh start. I wish there was a guiding light, so i would not wander off path.

Well it has been an intresting start to the year, not at all what I wanted thats for sure. I was all gung ho to get the new year started like last year….with a weight loss bang. Well there has been a bang all right, the sound of me crashing into the floor on nearly all counts! Grrrrr. I started good with 5 weeks of going tot eh gym 6 days a week, eating within my set calorie limits and what did I get for it, a big fat nothing….no loss to speak of just loss and regain and more loss and regain….its so annoying! So then I went on a bender of sorts…and used ever possible excuse that came my way to my advantage…so needless to say here I am no further ahead, but behind and feeling good and sorry for my self….now dont get me wrong I am still puching forward, just not in my usual positive go go way.

So this is me starting again. Ready Set Go!

 Goals for this week

1. Go to the gym at least 4 days this week, preferably 6.

2. Blog Daily, even if its just to check in.

3. Journal my food daily, Keep under 1500 calories daily.

4. Go Swimming or do Tae-Bo once weekly, preferably both.

5. No sweets.

So far so good. Hopping for a win this week.

Hope everyone is on a better roll than me!

Thats me in a nut shell. I should probably tell you there is going to be nothing positive in the words that follow, feel free to stop reading this is not weight loss related in any way, Im just plain bitching.

Yesterday was a day strait from &^$% I swear. Started with me feeling like drap when I got up, on my way to the gym before work hubby called nad said we did not have any hot water at the business. Hot water is a major issue  in an adult foster care home, have to have it. So I changed directions and skipped the gym (this did not break my heart at all) Get to the business and as Im walking in the door the the screen door hardware breaks. Then come in to find a note from staff that the kitchen lights stopped working. Then a resident comes out and tells me the yellow bathroom shower will not drain, and in turn when they went to use the green bathroom the shower knob broke off. All the water started the ants coming into the house. Needless to say I was overwhelmed. At work and on top of it, its a babysitting day as well. So I get all that accomplished and fied and leave work feeling pretty satisfied that everything is in its place and working. I then, baby in tow pick up my two friends and their toddler to go to NEw Baltimore, about 40 miles away. We no sooner get their and my friend noticed the hood of my truck steaming. So we pull over and low and behold the water pump blew, this is at 4:45 so of coarse there is no one that can fi it. And of coarse there is no rent a car places anywhere close. So I call my husband, great lot of help he is, he says “yeah”. So I hand up on him and call my brother, who is on a run in canada (he drives truck, and its his son I babysit) so he has to come all the way back to the yard drop off the semi and borrow his bosses suv to come get us, as his truck is not big enough. So while all that is going on I am trying t juggle a hungry baby and handle the phone call to my insurance, which of coarse only pays 15 miles of the tow. Then to further find out I have to wait for the tow truck. So My brother takes all them and I get to wait for the tow truck and of coarse ride home with him. So its not 7:30 and im freezing my arse off waiting for the tow, My loving hubby then calls to see whats happening…mind you this is nearly 3 hours later. I am so upset with him adn the situation I tell him where to go and how to get there….And im none to happy about having to ride with a stranger 40 miles….anyway I finally make it home at about 9pm only to find my husband has not watched the dogs (our girl is in heat) and find that the dogs have in fact done it, stuck together and everything. Puppies…just great. The find that our roommate, whom I asked NOT to drink my other friends beer he left here…not only drinking it but nearly 1/2 the 30 pack…did I mention he is an alcoholic? At anyrate Im was pissed and went strit to bed with out eating…oh yeah all I had all day was an orange. I sleep untill noon today and am still upset about everything. The damn business cost me about300 to fi yesterday and now the truck, started with a tow of 78$ after the part the insurance paid and of coarse were loooking at about 300 more to fi that! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I am taking today off from everything. Ill be back tomarrow in hopefully better form. Love to you all. Sorry about the bitchfit.

Im feeling a little blue today. Im beyond aggrivated that the scale will not cooperate on a long term time line. Seems All I am doing is losing and regaining the same 5lbs. Its very discouraging. Very very discouraging. Its one of those days when you go to the mirror and look at what you have become, physically and dont like it. Its so hard to stay positive and focused with no real results. Yes, I know I have come along way overall, but damn it I am looking at now and Im less than thrilled.

I want to feel good when I look in the mirror. I want to go shopping and not have to worry about IF  Ican find something that fits, let alone looks nice. I want to go to an Cedar Point and ride all the rides I choose, not those I will fit in. I want to put my seat belt on with out effort. I want boots that fit my calves. I want to take an airplane ride without having to worry about the size of my ass.I want to go shopping for the buisiness (I own an adult foster care and when I shop I shop) and not have people stare at the size of my cart piled high and see their looks that imply “no wonder she is fat”. I want to walk in the gym door with out the construction workers snickering. I want the cute vday nighties and know one of them will fit me. And most of all damn it I want a baby. I am just plain &^^*$$#& sick of being fat. I just want to scream. 1200-1600 Calories a day, low fat everything and gym 6 days a week should be moving the needle of the scale down, not back and forth.

Sorry for the rant. just a mood. I do beleive TOM is coming in for a visit. Great as if I need that! GRRRRR

 Oh and get this my sister slipped on the ice and fell the other day on the way into the gym. She hurt herself and went tot he doctor. This charming fellow informed her she was fat (yes he said fat) and that she needed to go on a diet. She again repeated…”i was on my way into the gym..” when he inquired what gym, she told him Curves and he said “Curves will work if you are an 80 year old woman but it wont do you any good” you need to reduce your calories. She, though stunned at his comments said I have been watching my calories, I eat around1200 a day, and he inturupted and said you cant cheat…and thats not nesisary if you reduced them to 2000 you would lose, just dont cheat. Mind you she had just had her first big loss of 7lbs the week before! So she was mad, but discouraged. What an asshole. I am so outraged.

 I am also unsubscribing to some of my buddies who have not blogged in awhile. It take s me forever to get thru them all and find those of you who do write and read! If you come back to blogging drop me a line so I can catch up with you!

Later all

Hope you are having a good day!

I read this article and found this intresting stuff thought I would pass it on!

WebMD Feature from “Good Housekeeping” Magazine

By Kate Torgovnick

It’s scientifically proven: The key isn’t just what you eat, it’s what you write.

If you’re anything like me, you have no idea how much food you inhale on a day-to-day basis. Thanks to multitasking, grabbing grub on the go, parking myself in front of the TV while munching, and various other weight-loss crimes, I often barely register that I’m eating. Take last week: I was totally oblivious that I was popping jelly beans into my mouth until my nephew complained that I was about to polish off his bag (sorry again, Jake). It’s tough to watch every mouthful you eat, even if you’re an expert. Researchers at Louisiana State University asked dietitians to estimate their daily caloric intake — and even the professionals lowballed the number by 10 percent. That may explain why it’s so hard to shed pounds, no matter how good the plan is.

But there’s a simple solution: Keep a food diary. Studies show that a journal doesn’t just aid weight loss — it turbo-charges it. When researchers from Kaiser Permanente Center for Health Research followed more than 2,000 dieters who were encouraged to record meals and snacks, they found that the single best predictor of whether a participant would drop weight was whether the person kept a food diary. It trumped exercise habits, age, and body mass index. The number of pounds people lost was directly related to the number of days they wrote in their log. (It’s no coincidence that Weight Watchers, one of the most successful diet programs, asks participants to track what they eat.)

Click here to read the full artical

http://www.webmd.com/diet/features/single-best-way-lose-weight

 I just love this web site, lots of really intresting articles!

http://www.webmd.com/diet/default.htm

Thought this was a really cool little tool.

http://mypyramid.gov/mypyramid/index.aspx

So I read an article in Womans World magazine today about the amazing benifit of an egg daily for breakfast. Apparently dieters that ate an egg daily lost 65% more weight and shrunk their waist lines 83% more than dieters who didnt eat the eggs but had the same amount of calories.

Eating an egg for breakfast is said to make you crave 400 calories less throughout the day, give you greater energy, be the highest quality protein you can get, prevent muscle loss during wight loss…not to mention stronger nails and hair, healthier eyes, better memory and protection from breast cancer. And apparently eggs have little effect on cholesterol like everyone used to think and reccomend 7-10 eggs a week.

 So I thought hmmm, Why not try this. I dont usualy eat breakfast, I have a slim fast but why not an egg only takes a minute or two. So I started this today. I had a pouched egg on toast with I cant beleive its not Butter light and a 6oz glass of OJ. It was really yummy by the way, I dont think I have had pouched eggs since before my dad died. Anyway the entire breakfast was 205 calories and very filling. Though I dont know if it is a cowinkedink, the power of suggestion or actually so, but my energy is through the roof. I’ve been to the gym, cleaned up the yard, walked in the woods and am still thinking about a walk with hubby and the dogs! So I am gonna egg it this week and see what happens. Wish me luck! Bowling sounds like fun too….hmmm

Well, got to the gym today….actually had a good work out. I could not beleive it this group of three ladies came in together and the curcuit was nearly empty only me and another girl and they came in and started right next to me, most people leave at least a machine in between each other. Now this would not be bad, however our gym is a bit on the small side and there is not a lot of room between each machine and the recovery station, I like to really work on the recovery stations not just walk in place and cant do that with someone 5 inches from you…grrrr

Well no ill effects from last night trip tot he buffee…down another lb. Seems like the scale is just going yo yo….back and forth over the same few 5lbs. what a pain in the arse!

Hope you all are having a great day!

Yes, the fat fairy struck again…..only beacuse I baited his ass with eating out tonight…Chan’s… the worlds best chinese buffee….blew my intake for the day….grrrrr.Oh well i still made it to the gym and what not. so its not a total loss. Well im off for the night.

Well it is cold and miserable here. The sun was out for a bit this morning but it went away We are at the business today  and it has been one of those days, seems like everyone has the ungreatful bug today. My morning started with the loving comment from one of my residents “only a moron would buy strawberries in January” So much for thinking strawberries would be a nice change….All the ladies are in top form today. One, bless her heart has been all but living in the restroom today, another is having major dementia problems and is tring to find her coat to go home, one is bossing all the others and causing ill feelings. Blaaaaaa. What a day! The only one being a peachy, is my normal trouble maker! Go figure! Hubby all but broke his back when he slipped on the ramp, I didnt know he could twist like that! Poor guy. I have a feeling he is gonna need a trip to the doctor, or at least the chiroprator. Im babysitting on top of all this and the poor little fella has broncitis and is not feeling well and beleive you me is letting me know! And to top it all off Ihave to cover 4 extra hours tonight, so im here will 7! Blaaa!

I did make it to the gym which is good, but i have not really eaten well today. only picked at a salad and just not feeling like eating I guess! Oh well. I am making a big supper so I am sure Ill live…  Hope everyone is having a better day that me!

Wooot Woo way to go girls so proud of all our efforts! Both Teams are doing great!

I had a restless night last night, woke up at 3am and could not get back to sleep. Watched exercise infomercials for the total gym for an hour! lol but it was not a total loss as I did leg lifts and some other made up in bed exercises while I watched! I was too comfy to come down stairs and do something productive! I fell asleep about 20 minutes to 7am, which s right before hubby gets home from work! Go figure.

I have to work afternoons tonight (YUK) as one of the girls had a wedding or something this weekend. I hate afternoons!

Well im of to fitday! Have a great sunday everyone!

Oh yeah my goals from last week were:

Here are the goals for this week!

1. Try to stay under 1200 calories (no more than 1400), and eat right   (I went over 1200 only once this week, with a 1496)
2. Drink my 8 glasses of water daily!!!!  (done)
3. Keep hitting the gym 6 days a week.  (DONE!)
4. Keep Blogging Daily   (Missed one)
5. Keep Food Journaling Daily    (Done!)
6. No Chocolate   (No Candy, did have a chocolater protein bar yesterday- yuk)
7. No Eating after 8pm   (Did once)

Thats how I feel anyway! Scale is yet again kind to me! Another lb bites the dust! Im totally hearing the song in my head….du du du du dunt dunt dunt dunt another one bites the dust! LOL !

Tried this whey soy protein smoothy today. I was Pina Colada flavored. It was ok But I was not thrilled. Anyone else have a good recipe for one???

Got to the gym again today. That make 3 weeks in a row of 6 days a week. Im feelin ok with that for sure. Got in some ab lounder time list night, definatly feel it today!

Well of off to fitday to journal my foods! Asta!

Hello All Hope you are having a sunny day as well. Things here are still cold as all get out but the sun is shinning and its making me feel of so happy!

Made it to the gym and surprise surprise surprise lost anothe pound! Woo Whooo! Cant complian there!

I have my nephew Aiden today and he is sick and fussy. I wish the flu season was over. My Neice Joey has Strep Throat….oh joy.  This is Aiden isnt he a cutie pie!

Well anywho. I am OP and everything is rocking. Hope you all are having a great day!

Well got my arse up and went to the gym at 8am on my day off (im about breaking my arm patting myself on the back) And came home and go a little bit of time in on this health rider thingy…Had my slimfast took my vitamins and woot woo Im on a roll! Big plans today, hubby and buddy are out ice fishing (Finally got some ice) and I am gonna give the dogs a bath and clean the house! Ill check in later!

Well the scale is being kind to me again…finally! Showing a 3.4lb loss today…yes! Gotta love that. Food is on plan and life is good! Hope everyone is have AOK OP DAY! Brightest Blessings!

Im only writing this as I made it a goal to blog daily. ummmm i have nothing to say today. blah day.

Well I have had a pretty unproductive day. I did get to evevate my heart rate a bit today but no all out exercise…yet. I cleaned and rearranged the house to make room for my ab lounger to get brought back in. The boys are gonna bring it in for me in a few minutes and I am gonna get some time in. Broke out the head phones and you know that my bootie is bounching all over the darn place…kind of has a mind of its own.

Last week was a bust, no loss. What a bummer.  But my fellow Fox’s kicked but with a 10lbs loss! Way to go girls! I guess I will just have to lose double this week to help carry us to victory! The Fantastic Fours did really great too! Can I get a Woot Woo!?!?

Its freakin cold here. Bone chilling! Brrrrr! I have the heaters all cranked up. I made some chili for dinner at hubbys request. Used the extra lean ground beef and beans with lots of tomatos, peppers and onions. It smells great. Gonna make him some corn bread as well. I will try to refrain, but im making no promises though!

Ok Im off to prod the men to get my exercise stuff back in the house! Later chickys!

du dudadu da I’ve got the weight loss stalling blues…du dudadu da  I dont know what Im gonna do….du dudadu da been eating right…du dudadu da and exercising too.. du dudadu da ….tee hee the funny part is I was singing that!!! HAHAHAHA

 I have to say I am more than bummed. Last week I was rocking the scale and this week not so much. The damn thing moves a little down and then right back the next day. WTH.

I KNOW  I have been make way way better food choices, and eating a whole lot less. I’ve hit the gym 6 days a week for my second week in a row. Been drinking my water, taking my vitamins and for what? All this work for a big fat nothing.

I know I know fear not, I have no intention of quiting or stopping, Its just so damn annoying! You would think with all these aches and pains from working out that their would be some visable reward. Ha right. Sorry I am just feeling a little pissy about this today. I dont want to let my fellow Fox’s down and it looks like this week may be a bust. I am doing extra today, lite everything with a side of heavy exercise to hopefully shed at least a pound by tomarrow.

I’ve racked my brain and the only thing I can think that my be contributing to my no loss, is the fact that we have been eating dinner really really late, like 10pm as hubby is working midnights and sleeps till 9:30. This is the only change and I dont go to sleep right away after he leaves usually 2am, but I am not active either so perhaps its the old, eat after 8 you gain weight therory? I guess I will just have to try eating earlier with out him. We will see what happens.

Ok well I feel better now that I vented! Hope you all are having a groovy day!

Not much to report, my weight loss has stalled this week for some reason….not real thrilled about it, but still going strong. Hit the gym today and have eaten of nothing much to report again today. Im tired and Think I am gonna go relax for a bit, tried to answer everyones blogs and did get my food journal done. So I feel AOK with some R&R!!! Night All!

Well I made it to the gym today, still OP and everything! Still didnt lose anything..which is depressing since last week I was practically melting….oh well maybe next week it will start droping off again! Started my vitamins again (YUK)  Have a bit of a headache again today….dont know what is up with that! All is well in the land of Jeci! Im just checking in Im off to food journal….nothing much to report..Have a Beautiful day!!

Update: I would just like to add I got in 40 minutes of swimming today as well! Woot Woo! Love it!

Does anyone know an online calorie counter where you can enter in all your ingrediants for a homemade meal (like a soup) and it will spit out the nutritional info?????

I really want to see that movie Mad Money. I think it looks cute. Sorry commercial came on right as I opend the blog…..lol

Went to the gym, ate op so far, drank my water. So far so good. No loss again today, but no gain so I wont complain. Given my state of mind, hitting the gym was quite an accomplishment today.

Hit the business and got some stuff done. Got a headache that wont go away even after my three hour nap. Took it out on hubby and shouldnt have so now I have to go make nice! This would all be easier if my head would stop throbbing.

Had a few drinks last night with my best guy friend and he ended up saying something stupid and offensive. Someone  had implied we were intimate (which is so NOT true, Im married to the BEST guy ever)…and him pointing out how rediculous that would be (this was a weight related….I’ll spare all the drama) Anyway it really hurt me that he said it, I know he was drinking as was I, however it hurt me and even with his immediate deniles, I feel he said what he ment and its terribly depressing to me.  Being a fat girl these kind of things happen over in over in life. More times than I could ever count. I just didnt realize my best friend who loves me thought that way to.Sorry for the pity party but it hurt my feelings and I needed to vent and try and shake this.

Anyway I am off to see if I can make some dinner then make some luvin fur the husbin! Hope you all had a FAB OP day!

Well I hit the gym today bright eyed and bushy tailed at 8am…all is still well so far!!! No lose today though Water intake could be better but Im tring.

Been a really busy day! Had the little nephew Aiden today (I watch him mon tue and fri) he is just over four months old and what a cutie!! And I had to work so I had the baby with me and some days taking care of 6 little ol ladies and a infant can really run you around! fwwwuuuu Im tired. Then after work Aiden in tow, I went to my estranged best friends house to end our 5 month fued….thank goodness thats over I missed her crazy arse! Then off to Kmart to get something creative for dinner….not easy, but thankfully the lil one slept right through the shopping! Got home and feed him, my baby bro came and got him shortly after I got home at 6:30 I threw dinner together and finally have made it to the computer to do my blogging!

Nothing much of intrest to report! Hope everyone is have and AOK OP DAY!

Well I made it to the gym to day, thank in large part to the weight loss challange! (Thanks Girls) As I so did not want to go today. I got online to check things and damn if  I didnt have messages from my loving buddies giving me pep comments….so those little gems obliterated any possible excuse I could  have possibly come up Thanks again girls!

Our day started with them ripping our front yard to peices to fix the water line break…what a pain…so nearly a thousand dollers later, 1 missing pine tree and a mud bog for a front yard and voila we have water pressure. Though I must say the sweet reward of a pressurized hot shower after a couple hours in the cold sleety mud boggin was awsome.

So my eating is better today, yesterday was not so hot. I was at 1541….but that being said Sundays is my self proclaimed day off. I did not do horrible, its just that we had 2 family meals yesterday, breakfast and dinner. Usualy we only have 1.  My choice were still good I think over all, I really watched my fat intake and what not….. I guess I should not complain I have lost 7lbs since last monday. Back on track.Yipee. I hope I can keep it going again. I would like to lose another 80 before summer hits. I have this therory…..will see if it holds any water….

Well all have a great day! Brightest Blessings!

I lost a battle last night with a Snickers Bar. It was so suductive and kept calling my name and wispering sweet nothings in my ear until I succumed to its wicked charms and savored every last delectible morsel. In my head it was a Barry White type of voice so you can imagin just how hard a battle it was, with a voice a smooth as chocolate…. 

So needless to say I went over my aloted calories for the day …about 420 over, of which the evil Shickers was a whopping 280!! Wow 1619 calories for the day, not my best effort. The most irritating thing about this little set back is that I truly am not a candy person. That would be my hubby’s role. I really dont like a lot of sweets never have, Im a real food kind of girl…And for me to crave a snickers like that never happens. I mean when TOM is in town I crave odd stuff, often chocolate….in the form of Oreos, my all time fav but not candy bars…oh well I have yet to get on the scale today, my home scale that is. When we moved our bedroom upstairs I took the scale up their from my kitchen. This was a mistake I am sure. Outta sight outta mind anyone?!?! So today the scale comes back down. I am thinking even though it is my “day off” from the gym (its closed) I sould do some exercies of some sort to kill off the ill effects of the candy bar….Its a bit chilly but I think I will see if I can drag hubby out for a walk… or maybe I will just do some Tae Bo. Though it will probably kill me after my first 6 day streak at the gym in such a long time….if i dont blog tomarrow you’ll know why! Im dead and it will be Billy Blanks fault! LOL just kidding….

Life is just a never ending battle of something…you know..Our water pressure went way down and of coarse it is not an easy little fix, oh no….just looking at the gyser shooting up in my front yard, a free spring if you will (that is untill the water department come out and shuts it off…)What the (*&^(^$ it not even a real winter and pipes are breaking….what a joke. So im guessing this little venture is gonna run us 500-1000$$ man that sucks! I just cant win! I hope its not more than that! Ugggg.

Well anyway I am off to do some “fat damage”  wish me luck.

da da du du du du another one bites the dust! Wooot Woo! Well I dragged my big arse to the gym for day 6. A big accomplishment as I was up late and did not want to get out of my warm bed! Though I feel like I ate alot yesterday, I was still only at 1267 Calories, not all great foods but not bad thats for sure. I didnt weigh myself today as I had to go to another gym as mine is closed on saturdays now.  :-(  Well I am going to eat op today. And try to complete some of the “30 ways to amaze” contest thingy at the gym.

Did any of you see the People mag? The Half their size issue? There is this blond gal in there that totally inspired me, she was 300lbs and is now 150, she is my height and build and damn if she doesnt look  fabulous. I am bummed though the more I read the more I keep hearing about excess skin. Is it really that unfair? Work so hard only to be plauged by yet another issue. She had to pay 6000$ to get rid of it. Who can afford 6000$ to remove skin. I wonder if it will eventually return to a semi normal state? grrr its always something. Later guys!

Well Im back, its official. Day 5 at the gym complete, day 5 of eating right, complete! And man oh man am I soar! My whole body aches. I feel like hell on a physical level. Why did I stop going tot he gym anyway? Where did I go wrong?

The more I think about it the more I found that its was very easy to get off track when you have a work out “partner”. It is so easy to make excuses to not go when your partner is not going. Dont get me wrong, I take total responsibility for not going. I had to make myself go alone 3 of the 5 days I went this week. When I started this journey I started it alone. All by myself, for 10 months, I went alone. Yet today, when I went I had to force myself at several times, literly as I was setting down to put on my gym shoes, I was still thinking I should just leave. No good reason for it, I just didnt want to go…WTH? But I guess its a moot point as I did go and I felt good once i started.

I should be feeling full of joy as day five has brought a four pound loss. Wait….RE LOSS that is, oh yeah did I mention the fat fairy dame to visit sometime between thanksgiving and christmas with a nasty little present of oh about 15lbs!!! Its so awful, the way I feel. Its diffrent than other times I have regained weight, this time I really feel like I let myself down, I really am bummed about it. But I am tring to gut it out and move forward.

 I have refused to weigh in at the gym until my next months weigh in on the 8th. I am giving myself a chance to get back at it. I feel I need it. My sister gained as well and she was saying she was gonna get weighted in as then she would feel more accountable…or something to that effect. But I think it will just drag me down further…ooh well.

So I am off to catch up will all the buddies I abandonded over the last month++ Sorry Guys I do love you all!!

Later

Yup I caught a case of the ho-hums. Damn. Not to worry I didnt get it untill after I went to the gym, thanks goodness. I am just feeling blue today. Which is silly as I have had a great day all things considered!Im off to food journal..just a short bloggy today!

Well I started the day of with a bang…literly!! First let me tell you my bed is about 4ft off the ground. My short behind has to use a foot stool to get up onto it. So when the phone rang this morning and I knocked it off the dresser it fell between the foot stool and the dresser. Me being the ever clever gal that I am decided I could just lean off the bed, use my big bootie as a counter weight and use the foot stool as a support and streatch and reach the phone so I didnt have to get down and in return “wake up” all the way….yeah right…as Im leaning off the bed balancing on the foot stool I manage to knock off a glass of water all over me and in turn the stool tips and I topple to the ground….lmao…though i was not laughing when it happened, more like cussing like a sailor!!! What a freaking way to start the day!! Sometimes I just cant beleive the shit that happened to me….

Fear not this did not detour me from the gym, I went and conqured….even got a few laughs from the girls as i relayed my mornings events…

Woke up to flurries finally.  They didnt last but at least it was snow. I miss the snow. I can not beleive it is mid Novemeber and there is no snow here in Michigan. What a trip. I hope the poweres that be start taking this global warming stuff to heart. There has to be more truth to it than they want us to know…

My dogs are driving me crazy today they keep barking and howeling and carring on. Our newest Rescue is tring her harded to be adopted by us, she doesnt want to leave. I love her to peices but I really just have my hands full with the 2 I have, as we take them with us back and forth tot he buisness and its just too much…So I am still in need of a good home for Miss Tiny…anyone intrested???She is very sweet and has learned soooo much already since being with us! I think she would be great for a family with no kids or teenagers…she is a bit too rambuntious for tots… here is her picture..

ok well the babies are here so I have to go talk to you all later!!!

j

Well I am in a GREAT mood. I have several buddies checking in on me and I had a chance to read most of the recent blogs of my buddies! Woot Woo. I feel good about buddyslim again, thanks guys you are all great!! I made it to the gym and I wrote in my jounal and here I am blogging my heart out!

Things finally looked up a little bit at the biz today, we may have our empty bed filled and that will be a huge blessing as money has been sooo soo soo tight I can not even tell you! I hope it all works out and soon!

On a sad note a wayward Hershy Almond Treasure made its way into my mouth this morning…damn little chocolates…they are as bad as flies!LMAO Thanks goodness there was only 1 of the kind I like! FWWWUUUEEE!

 The scale the gym is evil. I am back up according to it. But I refuse to beleive it, I will wait and see what it says next week when IT is in a better mood! LMAO

 Well I dont know weather to start getting excited or not, Me and hubby want a baby so bad it hurts. And we have not had any luck. My periods are finally on track since the beging of the year coming every month like a nightmare, untill last month…I am 19 days late today. I have taken test that all say negitive and am pretty sure im not. I am thinking my lack of self control in the eating and exercise department screwed up my cycle again….but my mom tells me that she was 5 months pregnate several tests (even at the doctor) and they didnt officially find out untilkl she was 5 months lalong when the baby started moving and they did and ultra sound…..hmmmm well at any rate Im not getting my hopes up to high, I just want to get exersicing and eating right everyday again so I can make a baby!

 Well Im off and running time for me to go home!

Brightest Blessings!!

Ok so this about sums up my thoughts for today…and yesterday and the day before…you get the idea! I have fallen so far off track I am not sure I would know the track if it smucked me in the face! I need to get back to my go go attitude and just do it already! So another monday another fresh start. I have not done any of the goals I spouted from the rooftops the last couple blogs…bad jeci! So Yesterday when I came accross this histarical photo, I thought there it is, your inspiriation…not to frighten your kitties! LMAO. So I dragged my ass to the gym, I had my breakfast slimfast, i forced my self to eat a salad for lunch and I bought chicken brests for dinner. Ive blogged and food journaled.Day 1, so far so good. So now as the holidays approach, the best food time of the year….uggg I am in need of a buddy, not just any buddy, someone who will hold me accountable daily untill I get back on track…any takers? I figure if I have someone that will check up on my daily, remind me to do my blogs and food journal and stay on track…bla bla bla then this might be easier!So if anyone is intrested in helping me help myself and vice versa…and ya wanna partner up then drop me a line!!! I am damn sick on my scale still not budging…grrrr.  I hope everyone is doing well, I am going to try to get online tomarrow for a bit and read everyones latest post. Have a great night!MMMWWWAA

Shawnie & I dressed up to hand out candy, I posted som Pictures, take a look if you get a chance….we had a blast! Much Love & Merry Samhain!! Shrek & Princess Fiona!

 I was making progress, though it feels like I slipped up big time this week. I only went to the gym twice! Grrr my own fault, just didnt go. Didnt do anything on my days off. I was happy, last time i jumped on the scale it was down to just over 313…but Im sure that happiness is gonna be short lived as I am sure its back up there again.

I have made an attmept three or four times to get on and read my subscriptions to everyones blogs, however it gets aggrivating going thru the list when over half the people have not been on in months. We should all drop by some upgrade ideas for the good doctor about the buddy section…At any rate I didnt want to remove any buddies. I know some will come back and some wont but I want to be here for them when I can. So I made a compromise, I have deleted subscriptions to any buddies who did not blog in the month of October. My list is much more managable. Is this rude? I honestly thought about just deleting buddies who have been inactive for a long time….what do you all think/do??

And to any buddies who get back on the buddieslim wagon drop me a line and we can pick up again….

 Well Monday marks yet another fresh start for me and the gym….wish me luck. Love to you all! 

Well I think its official….Drumroll please…I am back down, not by much but just enough to give me a glimmer of hope. I was down to 315 this morning. Its only a pound I know, and i know i very well could have the damn thing back tomarrow but its a start. Its the first time the scale has move down since the drama this summer.  I at least feel like my efforts are somewhat paying off. I mean damn I did Tae Bo three times last week and the gym 6 days…come on somethings gotta give right!?!?!

Stress its the fat fairies tool of choice! For sure, a little bit of worry goes a long way aone the waist line!!! Grrr. I recenly read that STRESSED is DESSERTS spelled backwards and damn if that isnt the truth….a little stress = little sweets= fat fat fat!!! I am stressed beyond measure right now with business stuff, its sucks being the boss sometimes. I really need to get a grip and learn to handle my stess better. The next few months are going to be real hard for us, we are having a hard time money wise and are forced to cut back employee hours and in turn increase ours. So now we will be working about 184 hours a week. This sould be fun. Quick someone hide the cake… I am actully ok with this it will give me some time to get things straitened out. I am really triing to be positive about the whole  mess and still find a way to lose lose lose. I really really want to hit at least 285 by the end of December, ideally 270.

I am increasing the Tae Bo by 1 extra day a week untill I hit the 7 day mark. I really want the ellipical but i can not afford it so I will do what I have to do.

Hubby is a bit sad I think, as i was measuring my waist the other day he came in and I measured his too, he is only 4 inches less than mine and I thing that got to him, Dont get me wrong he carries it well and doesnt have to deal witht he lower bellie buldge like I do so he is no wear nrear my size but its a bit depressing none the less. He quit smoking though, and I am SO PROUD of him, id rather he gain some weight than smoke!!!

Ok well I have to run Im at work and one of the ladies needs assistance…later all.

good luck this week kick the fat fairies ass!!!

Well I got very discouraged today, at Curves on the scale that is. I somehow gained back the 4lbs i relost in a day. WTF! I mean really i didnt eat anything overboard and stayed under 1300 calories. Its not my time of the month and to top it off im sick. Dont you lose weight when you are sick. No fair!

So this motivated me gym or no gym. I did 15 minutes of TaeBo. First time for me. They offered it on  Demand from my cable company. I had a hard time keeping pace on some parts but over all I did pretty good. I am gonna go home after leaving here and do it once again before I go to bed. It wasnt to hard and it burned 245 more calories so that hopefully will help.

 I have to say overall I am feeling discourage with the weight loss. I was losing an avarage or 15lbs a month the first 6 months then blam…notta. I still exercise and eat pretty good. What the heck. I know there are some emotional issues going on as well, its been one shitty summer and that has not helped.

then there is also the friends thing, the old roommates. We had parted ways and now we are back to the friend thing and well they dont help things at all. I was not hungry and protest all there muching. which went on FOREVER!!! And finally I caved, they had me making pancakes at midnight last night! Ugg and yes I ate some. Damn.

Well I am feeling pretty shitty right now about the whole fat thing. Maybe I will always just be a cute face with a chubby waist.

Hope you all have a good week!

OK you know Im tired of being stuck in nutural. Im not gaining, but im not losing either. I know a good portion of it is my fault as I have been a bit all ove the place with my eating, nothig really bad but nothing really great either! I am happy to say I am back on track at the gym after several false start last month. I have happly completed my 9th day in a row (excluding sundays as they are closed) Woot woo! But now it is time to get back on the track everywhere. It has been far far to long since my weight tracker has moved. I have a weigh in in a few days and I really really want it to be less than 316. I’ve been sitting there forever! I would like to hit 275 by christmas. I know I can do this. I want to do this. So I could use some helpful hints, I know a lot of you have hit the dreaded scale stop… what worked for you guys? I think I am gonna do a cabbage soup cleansing week, tee hee sounds fun huh. One thing I am gonna do is get my ab lounger back in action. I vow here and now that I will do my ab lounger on commercials during my tv time (excluding bathroom breaks)! I have started my food journal again and I am going to try to keep up with it as much as possible. I also am gonna start taking my supplements again. Hope everyone is having good results! I will try to get to reading some blogs this weekend! Its hard to keep up the more buddys you get!!But buddies make the world go round! Oh hey guess what I had a little boost at Curves this last week, They posted the top 100 weight loss winners from our 4 clubs, Im took 2nd place! Woot Woo, now there is some motivation….I wanna be number 1! LOL Ps my spell check on here doesnt work and I am soooo not a good speller…forgive me

Woot Woo! I dragged my arse tot eh gym today, didnt get there till like 2:30 But I got there and was very very happy I did! After my work out I hopped on the scale and damned if I havent lost the weight I gained back on my little summer hiadis….woot woo! I am thrilled. I was at 315! Im so happy I was dreading getting back on the scale on the 8th for my weigh in and having it show a gain! I have consistantly lost up until my hiadis.. I’m back and feeling good!

I cant remember if I told you all, one of my employee’s abandoned her dogs at the business when she left state. I being an animal lover wouldnt let them get put to sleep. We found a rescue for the one and the other, well she is still with us, We are fostering her until we can find her a home. We have been working with her and she is making great progress, anyway was infested with fleas and now so are my other 2 dogs and 3 cats! So I decided I was gonna flea bath them all and sprinkle the carpets…. this went well beleive it or not untill the last cat, Birkoff. He is my fat fat cat. He is declawed int he front and a lover, a rela lap cat. Well the little beast was no lover today. He did real well untill the last dunk to get the soap from his eyes! When he came up (and it was quick) the little monster bit me in the forearm! Its a deep puncture wond and it hurts (Im a big wbaby!) So needless to say im pouting around.

Well I am off to play some Pokerstars! Im feeling lucky!