Jecika’s Wayward Ramblings…

Welcome to my new newphew Aiden James! What a handsome little man. My younger brothers first child.

Im so proud of them! And so happy for them! (even if they did steal the name we liked! LOL)

Ok I know I know I know , I know how it works basically and I know I shouldnt let it get me down but damn it This stinks! I am a week ito my restart and fugglysticks! Thats all i can say. I am not doing good at all. I can not seem to find the motivation and the scale is not helping matters at all!!I have been tot he gym and my eatings been pretty good only two slip ups, not night binges and no damn movement on the scale! You ever just have one of those days when you feel FAT? with a capital F! Thats me today. I am gonna go to the gym now but I have to tell you all its not a happy day for it. I am this .. close to not going just cause im depressed. I am depressed, huh I didnt realize till just now. Well thats just great. Should have know after yesterdays drama I would be a rotten peach today.oh well maybe at the gym I can work off some steam. I hope you all are having a better day than I am. Dont let my bad attitude bring ya down! Later

Well I have got about nothing accomplished today. The weather is beautiful and I am so bummed I have to be inside today working

Curves is closed today so I have not got my exercise in. I did get some cleaning done I guess thats better than nothing. I hate sitting her watching all the jet ski’s fly bye. I wish I could go canoeing, its a perfect day for it.

Well I hope some of you are out enjoying the weather today! We are gonna take the ladies out on the deck tonight for dinner. At least we get a little fresh air!!

love to you all.

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Well I am back, yes for real this time. And I am gonna give this damn new blogging page a try, who knows if I will do it write or not. I am sure I will like it someday but right now it is just a pain in the arse!

Well lets get the relevant news out of the way first. I pretty much screwed up my diet and exercise program for about a month and a half. I gained 4lbs back Which really bites as it is the first time since I started my new healthier living routine in January that I have gained weight. Such a bummer! Now dont get me wrong I am not totally bummed about it as it could have been a heck of a lot worst. But I am happy to say that I started hitting the gym again and have already dropped all but a 1.5lbs of the regain. Hopefully by end of next week I will be a “loser” again.

I did start the eating better thing again, getting back to my 1200 calories a day. Boy did I pull some bs one my “month off” I chowed down during my time of the month on chocolate like no ones buisness!!!  The weird part about that is I really dont like sweets, even before changing what I eat….And, might as well confess I drank some pop too. not hard core but I did cave.

But once again its all behind me. I am going to take a before and after picture tonight when I get home, I found my Blue tank that I started taking the pictures in and thought it would be neat to see another side by side in the same shirt. Hopefully there will be a significant amount of extra material!!!

I just was at Catrinas page and OMG does she look fabulous! Such an inspiriation! Makes me wanna head back to the gym.

Well I will give you all the quick notes version of my crappy summer, and oh yes it was crappy. I lost two of my residents with in a month of each other, and it is always hard on me to lose them, no matter how many times I go thru it, they become my family, the grandma’s I no longer have. It was particulaly hard this time as these two wonderful ladies were the last of my first group, from when I opened my assisted living home. So in addition to losing loved ones, I of coarse have to worry about the finachials for the home and having empty beds is hard on us. We filled one right away but still have a vacancy and its tight here.

The roommates some of you may remember, well they are no more.Right before our vacation (a fun filled week camping in a downpour, all week long down pour!) Shelly wrecked my car. Then when the $$ issues kind of came to a head they just didnt come home one day. Didnt bother to give notice or clean up there stuff, left the hole upstairs a freaking disaster (Literly there where bowls with black stuff in them that I am sure growled at me when i picked them up to toss them!!! Not to mention pertrified food under the couches YUK!) So we had to haul all there stuff out of the house and into the garage, where it is now completly taking up the entire attic and a 1/4 of the main floor!!! Grrrrr Now, I cant say I am not a little sad, I do miss them and they are friends but it has been nice being roommate free. I am terrible broklen hearted though about Claudia, their little one (3years). She was pretty much a full time part of my life since she was born, I did my share of caring for her and to have Shelly just leave and take the baby, well it broke my heart. Its especially hard because Shawn and I have had no luck getting and staying pregnate so she was extra special. I find my self crying alot at stupid things. I see her picture or a baby cup and burst into tears. I never used to be so emotional I am not sure when that happened. Geez Im so goofy the other day i opened the cupboard and seen the canned food I bought her for when I wasnt home (they dont really cook) anyway I seen the last 10 for 10 sale stuff and again started crying in my pantry…even a stray show makes me sad. I worry about them all but most of all the lil one. I am sure eventually they will be back around, but it wount change the fact of all the things I am missing. Oh well i guess what can you do?

And lets see, I nearly lost my hubby, he got stung by a wasp in the juggular and feel to the ground having a seizure and stopped breathing on me. I have never been so scared in all my life. Thank goodness the EMS was fast. He is ok now but man I was a wreck for about a week!!Funny I deal with death all the time, have people pass away in my arms but when something happened to Shawn I lost it, after EMS took over and I didnt have to be the strong one, man oh man I wasnt I freaked out started shaking omg what n ordeal. Now he is fine and we are just dealing witht eh 4500.00$ hospital bills uggg.

And the icing on the cake of the summer, one of my employees quit and on top of it all abandon her two dogs at the assisted living!!!Plus her children trashed a bunch of our stuff (we let them stay over and use our camper for a moving away party…)They slashed sheets and pillows, nearly burned out the motor in our hot tub as they dropped the water level so low, plus got styrafoam balls in the bottom of it so we had to emply it! What a pain in the ass!!!! So now I am dealing with training new staff and getting all the BS wrapped up for the summer.but by goodness I am gonna get my butt back on track (and hopfully smaller) and get into the swing of a routine again!!

I swear I can not win for losing this summer! Well thats enough venting for a year!! Im glad its out of my system. Do you ever just get tired of even thinking about stuff like that? I do. What a waste of energy. Purge baby purge!

Love to you all! brightest Blessings! I will try to get somewhat caught up on all you guys, if I can figure out these damn blogs and stuff!

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