Bitchfest February 2008
Im feeling a little blue today. Im beyond aggrivated that the scale will not cooperate on a long term time line. Seems All I am doing is losing and regaining the same 5lbs. Its very discouraging. Very very discouraging. Its one of those days when you go to the mirror and look at what you have become, physically and dont like it. Its so hard to stay positive and focused with no real results. Yes, I know I have come along way overall, but damn it I am looking at now and Im less than thrilled.
I want to feel good when I look in the mirror. I want to go shopping and not have to worry about IF Ican find something that fits, let alone looks nice. I want to go to an Cedar Point and ride all the rides I choose, not those I will fit in. I want to put my seat belt on with out effort. I want boots that fit my calves. I want to take an airplane ride without having to worry about the size of my ass.I want to go shopping for the buisiness (I own an adult foster care and when I shop I shop) and not have people stare at the size of my cart piled high and see their looks that imply “no wonder she is fat”. I want to walk in the gym door with out the construction workers snickering. I want the cute vday nighties and know one of them will fit me. And most of all damn it I want a baby. I am just plain &^^*$$#& sick of being fat. I just want to scream. 1200-1600 Calories a day, low fat everything and gym 6 days a week should be moving the needle of the scale down, not back and forth.
Sorry for the rant. just a mood. I do beleive TOM is coming in for a visit. Great as if I need that! GRRRRR
Oh and get this my sister slipped on the ice and fell the other day on the way into the gym. She hurt herself and went tot he doctor. This charming fellow informed her she was fat (yes he said fat) and that she needed to go on a diet. She again repeated…”i was on my way into the gym..” when he inquired what gym, she told him Curves and he said “Curves will work if you are an 80 year old woman but it wont do you any good” you need to reduce your calories. She, though stunned at his comments said I have been watching my calories, I eat around1200 a day, and he inturupted and said you cant cheat…and thats not nesisary if you reduced them to 2000 you would lose, just dont cheat. Mind you she had just had her first big loss of 7lbs the week before! So she was mad, but discouraged. What an asshole. I am so outraged.
I am also unsubscribing to some of my buddies who have not blogged in awhile. It take s me forever to get thru them all and find those of you who do write and read! If you come back to blogging drop me a line so I can catch up with you!
Later all
Hope you are having a good day!
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Sorry you’re feeling down, Jessica. These types of days, or weeks, happen to us all. And you aren’t alone in those stinking 5 pounds. I’ve been on the same ones for 6 months, it seems. You have been doing great, even if the scales aren’t moving right now. You really are inspiring.
I hope you feel better soon. We all feel this way now and then. It does get very frustrating to keep fighting the same few pounds over and over. Heck, I hit my goal back in August and now I am trying to get back to it. I have been fighting 10-15 lbs for months. I know it feels easier to just give up but you cannot do that. You will only feel worse. Maybe look into what you eat and see of there is anything you can tweak for awhile just to get the scale to go beyond those same 5 lbs. I hope you feel better soon and WHAT A JERK DR.! Tell your sister to keep pushing forward also.
I am sorry you are having a bad week, Lord knows we all get them. I am right there with ya on the lose then gain the same lbs over and over again. You are doing great so don’t get discouraged just stay on track and the scale will follow. That doctor was a jerk, it is their job to inform people its in their best interest to loose weight but they don’t have to be rude about it.
Hey Jecika: I am sorry you are feeling bad. But please don’t get discouraged when I do i head for the donuts lol. There are times when our bodies go through changes and this is the time. Just continue to do your best and dr. dr. who gives a crap what he says! Have a great day sweetie!
Don’t get discouraged!! Just think…if you quit now, you’ll have to start over next year! Just keep going..and you WILL see a difference!
As for the doctor…. something I read in the past and have put to use myself with people like that, who feel the need to be rude… is just tell them in a nice cheerful voice… “Yes, I may be fat, but I’m working on that. I can and will change. This time next year, I’ll be a new me. You? You have a personality problem. This time next year, you’ll still be an a$$hole. So you have a nice day now.” and then walk out the door.
Just incase you ever want to use it!
Sorry you are feeling down woman. I think you can achieve all the goals you want but it will just take some time. Not forever but just a little time and those things you want will come. So sorry to hear about your sisters experience. There’s not much to say on that one except some people think that have a free pass to be rude whenever they want.
Hay Jessica, sorry to hear that your so discouraged. think positive, maybe next week you’ll lose those 5 lbs. and them some. Your being to hard on yourself.Keep your head up and hands away from the fridge lol.