Jecika’s Wayward Ramblings…

I am having a really really hard time right now getting motivated these days. I am making a few changes in my lifestyle that are proving to be harder than anticipated, and to top these lovely obsticals its my TOM and a horrible time it is. I have not given up. I am still very much wanting to continue my weightloss but am finding it difficult to get motivated on all levels. I find myself rationalizing that spring will bring a second wind…but what if it doesnt? I dont want to regain any more weight. I lost so much of my gusto when my efforts stopped paying off. Eating right and hitting the gym did zip!  I contemplated changing gyms, to get a bigger variety…but honestly I am not overly thrilled about joining a gym with men, my past experiances were less than steller and often left me less than motivated….I should not let it stand in the way but it can be so heartbreaking the rude comments and looks yadda yadda yadda….well anyway I am here and attempting yet another fresh start. I wish there was a guiding light, so i would not wander off path.

Well it has been an intresting start to the year, not at all what I wanted thats for sure. I was all gung ho to get the new year started like last year….with a weight loss bang. Well there has been a bang all right, the sound of me crashing into the floor on nearly all counts! Grrrrr. I started good with 5 weeks of going tot eh gym 6 days a week, eating within my set calorie limits and what did I get for it, a big fat nothing….no loss to speak of just loss and regain and more loss and regain….its so annoying! So then I went on a bender of sorts…and used ever possible excuse that came my way to my advantage…so needless to say here I am no further ahead, but behind and feeling good and sorry for my self….now dont get me wrong I am still puching forward, just not in my usual positive go go way.

So this is me starting again. Ready Set Go!

 Goals for this week

1. Go to the gym at least 4 days this week, preferably 6.

2. Blog Daily, even if its just to check in.

3. Journal my food daily, Keep under 1500 calories daily.

4. Go Swimming or do Tae-Bo once weekly, preferably both.

5. No sweets.

So far so good. Hopping for a win this week.

Hope everyone is on a better roll than me!